I always seem to find my ego getting in the way of my patience. I would like to think of myself as a patient and understanding individual. For the most part, I am. I definitely do not lack in understanding when it comes to the people I love. What I lack in patience, I make up for in compassion. I’m extremely receptive to emotions, which basically means that I will typically absorb the feelings of others, which used to be extremely destructive to my own well-being. However, I still find it hard not to let those around me impact my self-perception.
Lately, my patience is being tested more so than normal. I’m continuously brought to the same issue, and I’m still struggling with ways to cope in a positive way. I keep having to remind myself that other people’s stress, anxiety, and tension hold no reflection of the type of person I am. Since I’m a Leo, everything is personal. I always assume that other people’s reactions are a direct reflection of the type of person I am. My positivity, confidence, and playful and dramatic personality can easily be misconstrued or misunderstood, which makes me very insecure. I’m a nurturer and need to take care of the people I love, and when they refuse it, I become over-sensitive.
Finding ways to detach myself from other people’s emotions is a constant battle. I don’t want to lose my personable and warm charm that so many people love, and that I love as well. I don’t want to completely detach myself from something that I’m proud of. However, when it comes to my emotional health, it’s hard to decide which takes priority. My ego is either my best friend or worst enemy, and finding a balance between modesty and self-worth is probably my greatest lesson in life.
I keep having to remind myself to remain understanding and compassionate. If people refuse me, then I’ve done all I can and I must step away from the situation. My positive nature isn’t desired by everyone, and although I’d love to believe that I can change every negative soul with my energy, I have to accept that I can’t. I’ve come way too far to go back to where I was. I’m not a people pleaser anymore, and although changing that has meant losing the people I care about, it’s all worth it because I’m happy.
When I find this balance, I know that I can achieve incredible things.